About FMD - Why I Write

I am in pain. This is why I write. The pain I am in is a direct result of my own despicable actions on numerous occasions. It was difficult to come to grips with the fact that I am worse than anyone I write about on this site. For certain I am an insecure, narrow minded, judgmental, depressed, hypocritical, shovanistic, short sighted, abusive, angry, spineless, ugly, narcissistic loser. As for physical features… too tall, too heavy, bad hairline, bad teeth, to many tattoos, bad hygiene, and bottom line…the smelly kid in class. I truly have been betrayed by those closest to me and I believe I deserve it. My friends only still talk to me because I refuse to stop calling them and they are actually good people. When you break it down, nobody really likes me. With all that being said…I don’t care. I know nothing positive will ever come from my meaningless and hopefully short existence. I write the way I do so I can make others feel a portion of the daily pain I endure. I blow other peoples candles out just to make mine glow brighter for a few moments. So have at me if you dare, but keep it clean…